WORD!

i was thinking chicken.sweet soya sauce and chicken.yum yum?

i don't like guys calling me macho.it's so insulting to both parties.

omg,i love the smell of new clothes.

well,its a bummer that i'm not going tomorrow.gawd.i still gotta go for swimming then buy presents for the little ones.omg,the mighty G's going to St Gabs.i've got a feeling that the rain's not gonna stop.i've got a feeling that the school's not gonna accept me.i've got a feeling that i'm gonna srew my o's up in 2 years.i've got a feeling that there's chocolates in the fridge.i've got a feeling that my mum's reading this.i've got a feeling that i've gotta go now.i've got a feeling that i can't wait to watch 2012!it's freezinggggggggggggg,goose nitez

my mum just said i was fat.

she pointed to my hips and my pocket and said "you see..you growing fat already!"

and then i was like "that's my bone"

and she was like "ok"

and i was like "wtf?" *munch on hot dogs

my brother's an ass.so as for my adpoted brother.if u look closely,not here,they look alike!dang flabbit..

we fought over chocolates.happy thoughts happy thoughts happy thoughts.

hello!just got home about 2 hours ago.got the wedding photos.i look like a puppet.so,today i wen to tampines at about 2.30 and went to the gym.then went to swim.freak show.this dude from  my primary school was there.eeeeeeeeeeee~

ok,bye!

so it's a monday all over again.it's 13:43 and i'm about to change outta my p-jamies.i had some chips which were orange in colour and coke for breakfast.

yeah,we all know i'm gonna die young.hopefully we get to see the wedding photos soon.i'll upload some,but on second thought not.it'll be on facebook.

brother just left for the laselle exhibition.he used cigerrette buds for his 3 assignment and did it in one whole day without sleeping.he was telling me to sleep on time because when i go into an arts school,that'll be my state.no sleep,hungry,messed up,lost.

i hope lea n sy agree to boulder.well,sy already agreed.but,if lea disagrees,then i guess it just sy and i.my mum's pestering me about the r-climb level 1 course.gosh,i don't wanna be in the same class as her already.hahaha,so i'll just watch her climb and offer her food and water.

off to the gym,bye

the holidays are supposed to be fun and enjoyable.but,when everyone's down with fever...you have no choice.well,just can't wait for 18th november!

alright,tomorrow i think i'd be going to the in-law's crib to take a look at the photos and videos.so,i'll go to the gym first in the morning then i'll meet my mum.next,i've been meaning to meet beanie soon.poatz does'nt want to meet me.well,i'm praying so so so so hard to be eligible for E4.because the gang's there!there's like ryan,YY,darren and not to mention the awesome dames there.kyra,niki.the subjects they offer..its like way awesome.they've got elctive ss+lit,poa,emath,bio+physics..etc..its only that e4 offers 6 subjects.but,for art,i can take it as a private candidate.anyway,if i get into E4,i'll be so happy.i think i'll still remain in ODAC,only that'll be not in the r-climbing unit(DUH,i suck at it.) or maybe drama.but,odac's like once a week,and i would'nt have to go for mother tongue outta school..it'll all be in one major school!i'll be able to go to the gym(school or public) with yini almost like everyday becuz she's in odac too.only thing she's in E1.so there's more pressure there.i so totally don't wanna remain in damai man.its like totally stressful.(DREAM)

some1 said something that truly made sense.at the end of the day it all comes down to colour.we were discussing about our mums and how typical they were.haha,its was really comical.well,i hope avery's going for rock on this saturday,so i won't be a loner there to meet arul.

BYE

he bloody hell fell on his face AND he continued dancing.BLOOD i tell you there was BLOOD.he continued.he kept screaming when they stopped the music.he demanded the audio dude to continue.but,everyone came to help.that little boy is really something.i have no idea why i'm feeling really awkward after watching that,but,the boy's awesome.not to mention his age.EPIC..i hope all's well now.i don't want his nose to be broken.please,please,he's still young!i hope his breathing does'nt get affected.i remembered falling on my head,and there was a big swelling up there.horrifying.

caution!i don't know how many people i'm going to hurt.so,if you're brave enough,read on

hey guys.well,everything is'nt really moving smoothly on my side.i mean i've got problem with my friends.i guess after reading this,they'll realise how much of a coward i am,because i don't dare tell this to them in real.besides,who reads my blog?ok,this is'nt a problem,i agree.but i think u need to know.i've not been myself for the past few days is because,you guys actually know the problems i face at home.you should know,bcuz of the way i talk and etc.if not,you've just not been listening to what i've been saying.i'm not a kind of person who get aceepted where ever i go.i've learnt to accept that fact.but,it's been so long alrdy and e've been together,and u don't know me?but,when u guys are angry,i kinda partially understand..i mean,i believe you guys have a good presence of mind and all,so i thought you guys would understand my situation.whatever i say,well,mostly are gibberish,but there's still a part that actually means something.the fact that i want to go to india and be with my sister maybe driving y'all mad.i find it stupid that you don't understand me properly,after all we've been through,u're just giving me shit in return.(this part does'nt go to y'all from e5).

i think its time i pour it out here,again,only way yea?...

i dont feel good here.at the place i am in now,i feel useless,i feel like making a difference,but the time i need its not there.i feel like travelling around the world,but i can't.i don't feel comfartable living with my brothers,its really a torture.especially at times with the oldest bro.i mean,don't smoke in the toilet.the smell travels.my second bro,stop shouting!3rd...please learn to understand that god made me a girl for a reason..and mum,stop compairng me!i don't like it.about my education,i don't like studying.i won't be suprised if im partally mental or anything.it maybe true.the fall i had when i was a toddler may have given some side effects,i don't like the idea of cca's that have ppl who're idiots.i dont like cca's ending so late.i have a family to cheer on..i know im the youngeest,i'm tryna find a way to earn to play a part in this family.my mum cant be doing everything.the boys dont seem to be  helpng.i alrdy flopped my studies ,what more can i do!?i really wanna leave this place.i can do wonders there.i've alrdy got offers but im just not at the right place,right time,NTHG.so,i've decided.

okay,tomorrow,its a monday.firstly,i'll go to the gym thn i'll go for a swim..thn head home and comp for abit,do a lil' research and start the collection.bye!

http://www.hear-myprayer.blogspot.com/

Anne,thank you so much for that blogpost.i've grown much fonder of you already.you know how much i love you,right?the free hugs we used give to each other every morning,at school,during camp!i want to come back.i want to go back to that routine.as is,i miss you guys so much.schooling there was so m uch more carefree.i socialized with everyone.thanks to anne!she made me have that sense of confidence like a lion.that kinda determined me to go up on stage and take the lead.Anne,you my inspiration.i've said this a thousand times.i don't know if you remember.i love you!your like a sister.like we got the same blood.we kinda used to think alike too.this is how it is,always,Mum,my sister and Anne.:)i love you so much,take care!

i don't want to live in singapore already.eveyone's like saying the education level here's way better yada yada.i come to this talk like every year.every year i change my mind on where to go.last year was UK and this year its India.it's just because my sister's living there.i want to live with her.but,my mum is'nt approving it.she does'nt want me to destroy their married life.but,nobody gets the fact that i prefer india to singapore.there's just too much to handle here.i've got a few friends there,who're nice enough to help me out on choosing a school.but,no.

i'm already sick and tierd of feeling so useless.thought of at least spending 2 months in India during the holidays,but no.i can't.because,mum siad,if i were to go,there rest of my sibling were to go too.the expenditure for hotels etc would be haywire.my sister's telling me to gain my singing experience here in singapore.but,i know that india's singing talent is way better.ya' know?the kids there learn singing where they're 1 already.the teachers there are more trained.maybe i should just shut up.oh wait,this is my blog,and i've got all the right in the world to say what i think about anything.exceptional to some things.

i've loved the indian culture ever since i was a kid.the cinema's kinda in the blood,for my family.my mum.so yes,i want to move.i'm sick and tierd of living this 2 faced life.people don't know me.i can swear upon god,NONE of my friends no me well.they only know 1/3 of me.the just haven't go the time to see the other 2/3.i swear its freaky.but,this is the life.if you can't deal with it,better for you to break away.

i really really want to go to india to study.firstly,the serve you tea when you're doing your exam.the teachers love you.you can polish your shoes.school starts later.school transport is provided.only 4 languages there,hindi,tamil,french,english.i'm getting carried away.let me talk about today.

today was...unexpected.i mean my behaviour was wierd.my face was wierd-er.i did'nt sleep and the eye bags were so visible.i've never done that before,it sucks a whole lot.i don't know why i was talking 2 toned with everyone.leanna was just laughing though she did'nt really get my jokes.serisouly,the cow story,there's more to it.karishma was...well,she was emotional today.i don't know why.she went for dance later on,don't worry,the dame's good now.

i can't believe i told leanna about the guy i like.it's just wierd.because,i never expected myself to be so open to someone.but,all in all,i'm happy she did'nt make a big hoo haa about it.

i've just realised,that i don't have a fixed social circle.okay,i have a social circle,but they're adults.my friends,they come and go and everything's unexpected.yini and kyra did'nt stay very long,did they?leanna and sy and g and k won't stay long either,because  you and i know that the class variations will effect everything.

anyway,i just want god to hear my prayers.i want to take indian history,the one with the brits in it.unfortunately singapore education does'nt really go into that.literature,i want...

xoxo

US Defense Chief Travels To Australia, Indonesia, India, And Turkey

Alright,it's about time that i made a post that's really heartfelt.

here goes..

well,i know i'm only 14 and all.but,i feel like i really need to help my family out.maybe as simple as hiring a maid?paying the phone bills?at least the internet bill?wash the toilet?clean my room once a week?beutify my mum's one?i feel i need to do all these stuff.on top of that,i feel like having to earn money for the family.i really want to start it already.MG,asst. director, approached me and all,but,i'm really half hearted to send my portfolio.RB wanted me to send my portfolio to them too,but,i'm also really half hearted about it.god knows what can happen to one.in the media industry,people can rip you off into bits and pieces like in a second.you can be labelled as a prostitute if u just send your portfolio to anyone.hopefully,i get to travel abroad just for a week this november or december.i need to meet people there and here.my sister's doing well there.she met up with quite a number of people.but,just not MG,i guess.that's why she told me not to trust him,yet.

okay,lemme come back to the part i said i feel like an adult or something like that.i just watched 500 days of summer,and i learnt alot about life and love and lust.some times,we women,tend to be oblivious to our partner and how they feel.number one,he's not toy.number two,don't call him your friend/best friend if you've slept with him.number three,give him a little lime light when you're with your friends.number four,respect the fucking dude.number five,he may not be your lover.fate,love at first sight.these stuff don't apply to everyone.basically,if you've watched the movie and walked outta the cinema say this "what the fuck's the movie about?what's up with the dumb ending", you're an epic failure in life and you've never experinced love.it's clear cut on what the director was trying to say and for those who said that the movie was a stupid story about love,did you know it's actually based on a true story?oh yes,you clearly missed the first few parts of the movie because you were in the gents peeing.

the movie was fun.

did i tell you about how when livett and deschanel made me weep when they were hugging and all?like seriously,it was that intimade.their on screen love actually really did come alive.the movie's really about how people see it.i mean,we all know everyone's got a point of view and all.so yes,the movie's great,and i think the director will come up in the industry."kids!there's nothing wrong talking to the mirror."

how i relate the movie to myself?well,it's basically about my future.don't let the dude get into your pants that easily and later on they'll say "hey,ya know we're just friends right?"

all in all,today's mission impossible,accomplished.running from peace centre to plaza singapure,in heels, ain't no simple task.not to mention,i did'nt trip on anything.neither did i fall.so,then i met megan,she was smoking and rattling on how her boyfriend moved to oxly road yada yada,before that i met eleanor.that girl's got some attitude goin' on.before i could even finish my sentence,lil' girl walked away with an ok to not at my face.so after running down the escalator at the 7th floor,i ran to starbucks to hand over megan's portfolio..then i rean back up to GV to buy tickets to a movie which was thankfully starting in 5 minutes.

the day was good,but...i know the year is going to end and all..soon..

a little message to my peeps who read this blog

leanna

i know you don't really like me,i know.but,the fun times we had we're epic.yes!you are smart,really smart.you can sing.you can act.you can cry like poof.all in all,you're a multi-talented lady.one thing that i'll like to see you do is,take things seriously like when people make fun or when you make fun of people,ya know what i'm saying right?so yea,and have fun!

siang ying

what can i say?you are smart,and talented.you can play an instrument,unlike me.you're really nice,at times,and you remind me of one of the Sprouses.one thing that i'd like to see you do is make decisions on your on and be really focused on them.like,if you decided to buy a shirt,don't go around asking for your friends oppinions.i want you to experience stuff that you do on your on expense and don't always trust what your friends say.unless,they're really close to your heart.you're a goal-oriented girl and i see the determination in your eyes.so go for it..

ginice

the mighty one,i like you alot.you're wierd in a good way.you make me laugh with your not so intended jokes.but,i'll like to see you take a chill pill once in awhile and remember god's gift of boys to you.

you won't see these remarks in your report books.but,here's my "matey" report book remarks to you guys.oh,and good news,i'm remaining in express.thank you for your support.i love you guys.too bad the mighty K does'nt have things like these.so take care,and toodles.try to avoid talking to me for the next few days.i'm like a volcano now.go figure!

2009 CineVegas Film Festival - Portraits - Day 3

have you seen these stuff!?THEY'RE EPIC. I LUV THEM LIKE SO MUCH.all the above ones are from NIVETA

the only one above ^ is from runway bandits.they're so pretty,gorgeous splendidly splendid.AHHHHHHHHH

bye!

it's 01:15.i just had my bath.haven't had dinner yet.but,i'm not at all hungry.after school,4pm,i made a bee-line home.had lunch,fishball sambal.took a nap till 9pm.i missed SI.

i was really nervous.i was like..gonna cry and all..badddd

i was like,ugh failed maths and all and thn some much regret for science

thn art,FLOP.60-so now u wanna become designer la,kiss my ass.

im just nothing but a big fat loser

i was about to call ms nat.but thn i..i din't know whether to do it or not..instead i just sent her a fb msg

ZOMG,I JUST REALISED THAT HE ACTUALLY HAD A CRUSH ON ME.BUT,THE AGE DIFFERENCE WAS ABIT..AND NOW HE'S LIKE,IM NOT INTRESTED IN YOUR PRESENCE!LIKE WAT TAH FAQ.BYE

i never knew i was that bad in my humanities!like seriously!i failed both!i hope i pass with my other marks combined,i know geography is a total let down

ah,i  just fucking don't like exams,seriously.firstly,i get hair fall.then,lack of sleep.then,unlimited tears.then,pimple outbreak.then,more and more.

after exams,vocal training,tennis!,guitar with gypsy dood.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOT

bye

(L)

zomg,if you guys can remember Keagan Kang from spin?& chase?now he's into the broadway shiz?i miss him.especially the role he played in spin.i think it was spin.the one about the poly life shiz?yea.than he was the one,like the good quiet mischievious dude who gets into trouble.yea,strangely,me n my sister used to have a crush on him.but,it's just me now.-.-

basically,i haven't been studying due to the countless course works we've gotta finish.oh yea,& furthermore i've got 2nd language LC on thursday,thn mayja exams on monday and tuesday which i preferably won't wanna come to school..so yea,but i've got pw presentation so im lost?cuz,if pw were to go on till after school,i can't cuz i've got a fucking exam.so yea,cn't wait till tht's ovr cuz tuesday marks the end of 2nd lang and i can concentrate on math and science.

math and science,2 of my weakest subs in the history of my sec 2 life.well,im so pissed with my self tht i'mdrinking slimming tea.i don feel like sleeping but..oh guess what,my fxcked up bro din't go to tgive the model the fxcking cd.fxck ok.d'you know he's risking the life of the company?!ugh.tension.BYE!

i wanna go to temasek poly design school and have matured guy friends.i luv my gfs now.srsly.i just miss ryan,idk why.srsly!like truckloads i miss him heaps,i fxcking dunno why tho-.-

byebye

ion is so cold and..its so dead.i mean,if ur alone thr,ur wierd.like me.

met fiona, thn trained bck hme.boring,school's tmrw..gta get to city hall aft tht.

ahhhhh,i was rapping in the toilet about this generation teens.lmao.don't ask.anyway,i was in a math spree for the past 30 mins or so.hahahaha,omfg "I DON'T LIKE BOYS." "SHUTTUP,DON'T GIMME THAT SISSY TALK"

its all an art.don't make use of it.don't make it an excuse.

science remedial=waste of time.lucky ppl nvr cme.so yea.its just what u learnt earlier.

mum is like a bull.no wait,she's a women.METALLICAAAAAAAAAA WOW I NI.

im hungry

im going to eat

im going to sleep

im going to go to town tomorrow

im going to come home

im going to change

im going to go to br.

please, there is nothing wrong in going to changi airport to fucking study.i'm not meeting caitlin so it gives me more time to fucking study.furthermore,what's her fucking problem.she thinks i wanna go there to meet people.oh fucking hell.i'm not like that.she's asking me to go to bedok library to go study.fuck,she fucking does'nt understand that the mobsters from my fucking school would fuckingly be fucking around there and she's like "WHY D'YOU NEEDA GO SO FAR?" is changi airport in woodlands?jb?pulau ubin?NO.it's just one fucking mrt there and another fucking mrt back.what's so fucking tideous about that?"WHERE YOU WANNA STUDY THERE?" i said coffee bean or macs and she's like "GO TO THE MACS AT BEDOK" FUCK,people from my school would be there too.damn,fuck.my life's ruined.there is no way in me passing anything and it's all gonna be her fault.

about a boy i met over the moon for the second time

there he was,standing on the pinnacle of the crescent of the moon.i was tumultous about whatever happened earlier that day.he seemed like the only relief i could get,the moon boy,i'd call him.as hillarious it may sound,my love for him is and always will be true.he never spoke a word.NEVER.suddenly,his lips started to tremble.his ever so stifling voice erupted from his throat.it seemed so heard for him to speak.what's up with this boy?is he an alien?all of a sudden,a bright,shinning beam of light sweeped past my eyes.i saw his ugly face.he was nothing but a matrep-malay male mobsters.unruly to his behaviour,i jumped of the crescent moon and onto earth.mother nature was'nt as kind as i thought she'd be.she kicked me out of the Earth too.i had nowhere to turn to.i just pinched myselp and taa~daa i woke up lor.

lmao,1st only only,so don't ask me bout it.ok just ask,but confirm alot of mistakes.my math tutor said this wld work for eng.

hello,listening to phantom of the opera right now..well,im gonna start on eng.aiya,my mum tap mae alrdy.bye la.